Saturday, April 14, 2007

A wrong thought- A correct realization but a wrong timing.

An unexpected day out, onto the road, into the city, with the people, a photography exhibition to be attended. As a typical scene at a traffic signal of the roads of Delhi, I find people asking for money with some sort of, to be holy things in hands, children selling the magazines, water bottles, dusting clothes for the cars , etc but it’s a different thing I noticed yesterday. All the other times I see them, I never worry or care either about the person who is selling it or the item in his hand. This time it caught my eye, something which I couldn’t leave off but I……………
A bunch of RED ROSES, oh my, I couldn’t take off my eye from them. On our way to work, a person came selling them, I controlled myself saying that I am going out on some appointment, it will take time for me there and all that time the roses have to stay back in the car, in hot sun, lonely and dry, I really don’t want to pain them. Trying to put my head down, headed forward.
Reached the destination, went through the photography exhibition, out strolling on the busy lanes of PVR Priya complex, find out our eating corner and had a good snack, but nowhere in my mind were the roses which disturbed me few hours ago.
Sitting in the care on our way back, I was thinking of the photographs I saw, the creative eye behind it ,,,, once again………..
Once again something struck me, this time it’s a more bigger bunch of the same red roses, a bigger wait at the signal, a smaller boy selling them………….
Came to the car, even now I was enjoying them visually but ……….my driver asked for the rate of them, the boy replied “sathar”……………..fine these cost so much and I really don’t have any place to fit them into, was my immediate thought…….the boy went on….
“didhi leligiyena, mujko khane ke liye paisa milega” ……….. sathar se pachas, pachas se chalis, chalis se thies tak aya wo, lekin........ how stupid I am.... even now I am only worried that this I not my place I am staying in, to give them a attractive corner or a beautiful centre….but nothing I could do even to help the boy, I felt like lending him some rupee but it’s a wrong thing to do, he is not asking money…..what should I..
Time to move, the green is on...the boy left… in few second my mind realized that I should have bought those flowers…
I only worried that they will be spoiled, but I never thought that if not in my hand may be in somebody else hands or may in the same persons hand, they must have there final finish, nobody can stop that na…..
I cursed myself... that I really pained those roses, if I took them, I would have taken care more better than somebody else, I would give them my love, my caring touch,,, and even after they dry they would remain with me, in my collection, but not into the dustbin…….
But…………it’s late………..no roses……….no boy……………..nor his food……….becoz of me…….my stupidity……what can I do now, I only have to learn it and forget it, for a day forward.
Last night I dreamt….dry flowers all over, I wanted to buy them, this time I neither had that opportunity nor so much money…..why?
Why? Why did I do that yesterday? Why didn’t I buy them?
I am confident that I would have taken care of them more better than any other person, specially a Delhite,,, as these ppl only look at it as a rose of pleasure, but not as a flower with life….look! Even now… I am overlooking that I also did bad to the young boy asking for food…. Its time away… I cant correct it now but only get forward thinking that these things are deserved by somebody else and hopping that person would have more better care for flowers than me………..
"All God's creatures are His family; and he is the most beloved of God who tries to do most good to God's creatures."- Abdul Kalam
Think, use your mind and put that thought into action at the right time.